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Ice caps sliding...Do something to make a difference now.

2008-02-04T18:00:13Z

Ayu's Note: This is from one of my friends here on myspace...I feel its time we do something to make a change of this as well. We indeed must do something about this. I don't care if you sign the petition or not,But its important we talk about this more and get it out there. Its time we get serious bout this. Agree or disagree if you want,But Believe it or not. We gotta do something and take care of our planet.
If we don't do something by 2013,It'll be too late...What we do in the next two to three years determines our future.
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I was watching a program and a glacial expert said the ice sheets are sliding at 5 times the speed they were previously before the accelerated melting which could result in a 3 ft rise in sea level much sooner from all the ice entering the open oceans as opposed to the ice sheets actually melting over next few decades. A rise in sea level of 3 ft would turn our economy upside down not to mention displace millions of people all of which would be campng out in cities at higher elevations bringing with them disease from lack of food , water and indoor plumbing.....kinda like Katrina aftermath only from coast to coast and permanent as there will be no levee to repair or cities to rebuild.
Below is a blog from our friend Frankodelic which gives many other global warming concerns and points out that global warming is hardly being discussed in the presidential debates with a link to sign a petition to get it talked about more..

I started this global warming awareness campaign, along with the Pasadena Global Warming Group, in reaction to inadequate government leadership, public apathy, and an active campaign by some industries to distort the science of global warming. I also maintain a Calendar of Local Eco-Events at PasadenaGlobalWarming.com and own a company that sells sustainable transportation products at UrbanScooters.com (site / myspace page).

Why am I so passionate about this issue?

The consequences of global warming left unchecked include;

* Extreme and unstable weather; extreme heat, droughts, floods, increased number of cat 4 & 5 hurricanes, forest fires, etc.

* Decreased snowcap, glacial runoff, etc. resulting in a lack of fresh water for an ever increasing global population.

* A severe impact on agriculture resulting in a lack of food for an ever increasing population.

* A devestating economic crisis worse than the Great Depression of the 1930's.

* Changing ecosystems triggering a man made mass extinction event projected to wipe out over 50 per cent of all animal and plant species.

* Coastal flooding, shoreline erosion and agricultural disruption creating 150 million environmental refugees by 2050.

* Increased temperatures causing tropical diseases like dengue fever and malaria to flourish in the USA.

* Environmental refugees and a competition for resources leading to increased global conflict and resource wars.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Effects_of_global_warming

This is a conservative estimate, feedback loops and unimagined consequences will quite possibly cause greater impact and suffering. WE MUST ACT NOW. If we hesitate, scientists expect we will soon reach a tipping point from which there is no return.

My plan (our plan) for change in 2008!

While the climate crisis is the biggest challenge facing our next President, it rarely enters the political debate. It's up to us, the people, to see that global warming gets the political attention it deserves in the run up to the 2008 Presidential election.

How we can make a difference?

Go to WhatAreTheyWaitingFor.com. Watch the video, sign the petition and tell people about it. Next, let's help each other find new myspace friends and further spread the message.

for 4chan :D or whatever

2007-11-21T18:53:36Z

EDIT: Oh yes...This is specifically for Ginger Anne and Michela...Cause I love them so much like a fat kid loves Cake. They are just that awesome and have my loyalty Foreverz! LULZ!

Not really me to do this crap but I decided to jump on the bandwagon :P

I GOT A JAR OF DIRT AND GUESS WHATS INSIDE IT!? HUR HUR! :D

Jar of dirt

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shit shit shit fuck fuck fuck...

2007-09-16T21:28:49Z

Two things i'm currently Addicted too BADLY...

Silent Hill 3

&

World of Warcraft...

Kumori Con...Packing...

2007-08-31T04:41:22Z

I am packing for kumori con...I am so nervous and excited...Pearle and lee won't be there...so it's gonna be strange yet this i my opportunity to meet someone new...I will be leaving tomorrow...if anyone eles is going...Please feel free to let me know and ill give you my cell phone if need be...Either way...I'll leave a short post tomorrow before I leave with my cell :3

Of course will return with LOTS of pictures! love you all.

Radio Show! come check us out!!!

2007-08-24T13:47:41Z

Hey all Nemesis Nexus & Goddess Neptune here! This Saturday night (goddess willing as shit just seems to keep happening) at 10p.est. (7p.pst.) I, along with my co-host Goddess Neptune, will be debuting our show on http://tunes.un-plug.us The name of the show is currently under debate (like Trent Reznor says "coming up with names is a pain in the ass") Thus far it's being called "Hell Hath No Fury".

"H.H.N.F." is an open discussion/debate forum with topics ranging all over and music every so often to set/diffuse the mood. How it works (or rather how I'd like for it to work) is since we don't have a call-in feature but do have a chat room; G.N and I will open the floor with a topic and discuss it amongst ourselves then invite everyone in the chat room to voice their opinions on the matter and also to make suggestions on the next topic. Unfortunately we can't (at this time anyway) take requests as far as the music we play. However I don't foresee this as being a problem (in the future we can try listing 3 or 4 songs and then do a chat room poll to determine what song gets played next, we'll see what happens..... ) In the meantime.....

What I'd like to do is get some if not all of the bands on my friends list and any other bands/solo artists they may know who are seeking exposure to send me some tracks that we can air throughout the course of the program.

Please remember this is free internet radio and when/if you mention this to another band/artist to stress that it's for exposure only. I also have no problems shamelessly promoting shows, CD releases, or websites so if you have a show coming up, a CD about to be released or a website that you'd like people/fans to check out, feel free to send me the info here.

Hope to see ya'll Saturday!

Dark Blessings!
Nemesis Nexus & Goddess Neptune

Yup that's right! We have our own radio show...Come to our show if you want! It'll be great!

Goddess Neptune

FINA-FUCKING-LY!

2007-06-04T11:47:42Z

OMG I was just having a conversation with Sara(Aka Blue Mew XD) and She was talking about how her hair use to look like Shakira from her "Objection Tango" music video...I told her she looked like Carolina Soares...I'll introduce you guys in a sec to Carolina Soares Music video and her WONDERFUL VOICE.

Carolina Soares is a Mestre(MASTER) In the Art that I use to dedicate myself to; Capoeira.
Capoeira is a martial arts that was created by the slaves in Brazil over 500 years ago. The art is an Illusionized as a Dance. This is how the fooled the police. Back then The slaves weren't allowed to study the martial arts....
I was getting REALLY good at this art but sadly had to stop it when I moved far from Seattle...
Carolina Soares is the FIRST Female in Brazil who has made a Capoeira Compilation CD.

So Folks Here is her Music Video From her Very First Cd.

Samba De Roda-Carolina Soares

This one's For the ladies...XD

2007-05-01T09:08:51Z

Dear Mr. Thatcher,

I have been a loyal user of your Always maxi pads for over 20 years, and I appreciate many of their features. Why, without the LeakGuard Core™ or Dri-Weave™ absorbency, I'd probably never go horseback riding or salsa dancing, and I'd certainly steer clear of running up and down the beach in tight, white shorts. But my favorite feature has to be your revolutionary Flexi-Wings. Kudos on being the only company smart enough to realize how crucial it is that maxi pads be aerodynamic. I can't tell you how safe and secure I feel each month knowing there's a little F-16 in my pants.

Have you ever had a menstrual period, Mr. Thatcher? Ever suffered from "the curse"? I'm guessing you haven't. Well, my "time of the month" is starting right now. As I type, I can already feel hormonal forces violently surging through my body. Just a few minutes from now, my body will adjust and I'll be transformed into what my husband likes to call "an inbred hillbilly with knife skills." Isn't the human body amazing?

As brand manager in the feminine-hygiene division, you've no doubt seen quite a bit of research on what exactly happens during your customers' monthly visits from Aunt Flo. Therefore, you must know about the bloating, puffiness, and cramping we endure, and about our intense mood swings, crying jags, and out-of-control behavior. You surely realize it's a tough time for most women. In fact, only last week, my friend Jennifer fought the violent urge to shove her boyfriend's testicles into a George Foreman Grill just because he told her he thought Grey's Anatomy was written by drunken chimps. Crazy! The point is, sir, you of all people must realize that America is just crawling with homicidal maniacs in capri pants. Which brings me to the reason for my letter.

Last month, while in the throes of cramping so painful I wanted to reach inside my body and yank out my uterus, I opened an Always maxi pad, and there, printed on the adhesive backing, were these words: "Have a Happy Period."

Are you fucking kidding me?

What I mean is, does any part of your tiny middle-manager brain really think happiness—actual smiling, laughing happiness—is possible during a menstrual period? Did anything mentioned above sound the least bit pleasurable? Well, did it, James? FYI, unless you're some kind of sick S&M freak girl, there will never be anything "happy" about a day in which you have to jack yourself up on Motrin and Kahlúa and lock yourself in your house just so you don't march down to the local Walgreens armed with a hunting rifle and a sketchy plan to end your life in a blaze of glory. For the love of God, pull your head out, man. If you just have to slap a moronic message on a maxi pad, wouldn't it make more sense to say something that's actually pertinent, like "Put Down the Hammer" or "Vehicular Manslaughter Is Wrong"? Or are you just picking on us?

Sir, please inform your accounting department that, effective immediately, there will be an $8 drop in monthly profits, for I have chosen to take my maxi-pad business elsewhere. And though I will certainly miss your Flexi-Wings, I will not for one minute miss your brand of condescending bullshit. And that's a promise I will keep. Always.

Best,

Wendi Aarons
Austin, TX

Finally Back from Sakura Con...

2007-04-09T08:05:07Z

Hey Everybody,I'm finally back from Sakura con and here to show you my pictures and what happened over the weekend ;)
To Brandi...I Was not able to find Mish(?) But I did find run into someone eles...Who you ask? You'll have to look through the pictures to see for yourself :)

(For some odd reason LJ is being a fucking dumb ass and won't let me hide these behind a fucking link...So I apolagize.)

I will Write about the con Later...NEED SLEEP...It's 3:18am right now so I will edit this later...Enjoy the pictures for now tho.

First & Foremost,This guy was an absolute sweetheart...I met him a few times on Friday...But then on Saturday during the Hellsing Ultimate 2 Premiere,He was sitting behind me,Every now and then I looked back at him and gave him a smile,He'd smile right back at me. After the Movie I think,He came up from behind doing a pretty damn good job on being alucard & doing his voice and said "What are your orders my master?" Or somewhere along there XD It scared me,But I enjoyed it completly. He wrote me and said I made his night =3 that totally made me smile. Before Leaving...I said "Sir Integra demands a hug" and when I hugged him I believe he said "yes,My lovely" XD he's the FIRST alucard that was able to give me a REAL hug unlike the others!

Me & Pearle At the Lin Clover Concert.

Me & my friend Rachel!!! :D

Me & Alucard XD I Felt so short!

Me & Walters! :D

Me & my tiny self n_n

I have such tiny Hands...

smoking a cigar...

I was standing in line to meet KT Gray & such and saw this lady...I walked up to her and said "you look REALLY firmilar...What anime conventions have you been to?" Her reply; "Anime Expo,Anime Vegas" When she said that,I stopped her from going any further "That's why you look so firmilar! I have a friend who's a Integra cosplayer and saw you in the picture with her" she started thinking for a moment "i know who your talking about...Brandi right?" "Yes,that's right!" we talked for alittle bit longer and then she said "I'm honored you remembered me!" XD

A better one! :)

Hellsing Females XD

The Hellsing Org. Loves you :) LOL

Me & Blood Seras :D

Me & KT Gray!!!! (Voice Of Seras Victoria)

Me & Pearle :D

Me & Rip Van W. :)

hahaha I kinda just glomped him and it looks like he enjoyed it abit XD LOL

Don't Ask. Pearle just thought it would be hillarious for me to pose as integra doing gangsta signs XD LOL

Me and a REAL Japanese Sir integra! she was so cool and sweet! She had a translator and said my japanese was good XD

Me & Fran from FF12! She did great on her cosplay! :D

Me & Rachel before going out to eat =3

me & pip <3 She was so sweet :D

Me,Female Walter & bloodied stabbed Seras victoria.

Walter Lights my cigar XD

Yah! Walter Kisses me on the cheek...and she's enjoying it =3

These pictures didnt come out QUITE exactly the way I wanted em too(Angle wise) but it's okay.

Sakura Con...

2007-04-05T19:47:59Z

Hey everyone...I will be leaving tonight for Sakura con...So please leave me lots of love for me to return home to??? :'( I will have alot of pictures when I return...Hopefully,I'll have a fucking blast...I am soooo excited :) Okay time to finish my last minute packing...I will be home sometime Easter sunday afternoon or so...:) I love you guys all so much.
Remember...Leave me some love please??? Thanks :) means the world to me.

Ayumi
AKA Lesbian Sir Integra <3 XD

Isn't It Funny....?

2007-04-04T21:06:15Z

How A hat can make a huge difference in your wardrobe?

I was having a very bad hairday and telling Gio about it...Finally after she went silent on me for a few seconds(or vice versa...Can't remember LOL) I turned my bad hair day into this...I'm thankful I had my hat with me...

In other news: Tomorrow I'm Leaving for Sakura Con...I'm really nervous and Excited...It's very surreal...and It's Official...I WILL be attending Otakon this year.

hahahaha Thanks Laura...

2007-04-02T02:26:16Z

I was shopping at Ross(clothing Store) & while doing so...I Instant message Laura cause I hadn't talked/heard from her for a few days...

While talking to her,She gave me this picture while I was browsing,walking and shopping..
Which caused me to stop dead in my tracks & my jaw to hit the floor & got alot of people Staring at me like I was a freak like there was no freak before!
Laura,Your a fucking Genius & Thanks for making my Day. No,Seriously. I mean it. XD

Classes...Oh snap...

2007-03-28T23:20:42Z

So...I had a meeting today with my counsler Melissa at my college...And Oh boy,I'm gonna be sooo fucking busy with school it's not even funny...I may only have two classes but one of them is almost college level...
Thankfully...I got a MAJOR FUCKING DISCOUNT on one of my other classes...If it wasn't for the discount,It would of been a total of 500 bucks or so...So my class is only 90 bucks...

I decided to only do ABE & Marine Biology...And I'm VERY excited.

ABE-Monday Through Thursday...Time: 9am-11am
Marine biology- Tuesday through Thursday...Time: 11am-11:50am.
Marine Biology-Thursday...Time: 1:00pm-4:50pm x.x

Also all of you guys here on LJ have been quiet...XD and no body writes me anymore...Maybe I'm posting too much...?

Move your body to the housebeat...

2007-03-27T20:13:35Z

I am so dead tired right now...It's not even funny...

Updates on what's going on and crap...

I have to register for school this quarter...I'm excited yet overwhelmed at the same time...
For one...It's gonna cost $175 bucks for this quarter alone...I know that's not too horrible,But it's still buttload expensive!! Espcially since my anime convention is coming up!!
Class starts April 2nd...and I have to Leave Thursday(the 5th) to pick up my badge & all that crap...
I know this may not seem alot to you guys,but it's alot for me,But I feel this quarter will be good & worthwhile for once...Not to mention...I HAVE TO GET THIS DONE...
Classes:
P.E.
Computer Classes
&
ABE(Adult basic Education) ugh...

Summer...I think I'll finally be able to take Marine biology(which I'm REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO & whatever class I have to take at this online University...
then in fall...I am TAKING JAPANESE CLASSES WOO!
(HOPEFULLY...LOL)
and...Finally I'll also be able to train to be a makeup/hair artist & Bartender...THEN I'm MOVING!

Run Away...

2007-03-23T11:29:45Z

I've got my things packed
My favorite pillow
Got my sleeping bag
Climb out the window
All the pictures and pain
I left behind
All the freedom and fame
I've gotta find
And I wonder
How long it'll take them to notice that I'm gone
And I wonder
How far it'll take me

To run away
It don't make any sense to me
Run away
This life makes no sense to me
Run away
It don't make any sense to me
Run away
It don't make any sense to me

I was just trying to be myself
You go your way I'll meet you in hell
It's all these secrets that I shouldn't tell I've got to run away
It's hypocritical of you
Do as you say not as you do
I'll never be your perfect girl
I've got to run away

I'm too young to be
Taken seriously
But I'm too old to believe
All this hypocrisy
And I wonder
How long it'll take them to see my bed is made
And I wonder
If I was a mistake

I might have nowhere left to go
But I know that I cannot go home
These words are strapped inside my head
Tell me to run before I'm dead
Chase the rainbows in my mind
And I will try to stay alive
Maybe the world will know one day
Why won't you help me run away

It don't make any sense to me
Run away
This life makes no sense to me
Run away

I could sing for change
On a Paris street
Be a red light dancer
In New Orleans
I could start again
To the family
I could change my name
Come and go as I please
In the dead of night
You'll wonder where I've gone
Wasn't it you
Wasn't it you
Wasn't it you that made me run away

I was just trying to be myself
You go your way I'll meet you in hell
All these secrets that I shouldn't tell I've got to run away
It's hypocritical of you
Do as you say not as you do
Never be your perfect girl
I've got to run away
It don't make any sense to me
Run away
This life makes no sense to me
Run away
It don't make any sense to me
Run away
It don't make any sense to me

This life makes no sense to me
It don't make no sense to me
It don't make any sense to me
Life don't make any sense to me

Cigars.

2007-03-22T09:36:32Z

I smoked a cigar for the first time about an hour ago...It was quite unushal if I do say so myself.
For one,I can NEVER finish off my Cigar. Even the Miniatures. I find myself spitting ALOT.
I think I'm scared of getting addicted and what my parents would say/think if they found out....
But What can I say? These last couple of months have been extreamly stressful and I'm under so much Anxiety. I live in a man's world,I love the smell of Cigars,Deep down inside I'm a man baby ;) (And Sir Integra as well)
"it's a filthy Addiction" I hate to say it...But being a man is a filthy job,And I love getting down and dirty. It can be fun sometimes.
Another thing I'm scared of...My mouth being ruined...But in all honesty when I think about it,My mouth is already messed up along with my teeth,and It's my Funeral/Cross to carry anyways.
I have always been scared to do things just because it's horrible...Kinda like Sex. I've never done anything like this...and Don't ever want to be labeled like my mother has labeled my sister...I don't want my mom to consider me one of my two sisters but she has before so It's only fair I shouldn't give a fuck right? Goddess,I hate this Big time...
My friend Pearle whom I've had feelings for since the day I met her almost a year ago is getting married...I cried for two whole days,I dunno why my heart was so badly broken when I knew from the very start I'd never have a chance to even be with her. Maybe I was just being too hopeful? Then of course...I lost my friend Mia...Who I thought cared about me...But for the past year told me nothing but lies and tried to make me a fool...

Sakura con is less then 14 days away...I'm getting the jitters already. My wig looks like Complete shit. I need to fix it and make it more natural looking atleast UNDERNEATH the head where my ears are...I might just order a new wig after Sakura con...I dunno yet. I'm very excited for Anime Expo as well...
I'm having one of those "I just want to be loved & accepted by all" moments. I hate that...I kinda wish Laura(Morluna)was on but she's sleeping...She's really nice,sweet & adorable and is so understanding to me <3 I can't thank her enough for listening to me and being the only person on AIM that ever really talks to me LOL :D

Also...I must admit...I DEFINETLY love Writing here on Livejournal compare to myspace blogging...The atomosphere on LJ is just totally different,Whenever I'm on Myspace...I somehow get super depressed because I always manage to think other people on myspace have a better life then me LMAO

Was I too Harsh?

2007-03-20T04:33:57Z

My sister had this guy friend or whatever,and he has been complaining ALOT lately about how girls arent into him and such...I told him several times that he needed to love himself and his DAUGHTER before loving anyone eles...He just kept making the same stupid post,Wanting people to make him feel better...I finally got abit pissed off and decided it was time to be blunt and honest with the guy.
This letter was from myspace...So scroll down to the bottom to read his letter...My response to him is on the top here of course...Was I too hard & mean?

I don't mean to sound like a complete BITCH or anything...But I believe I've had this discussion sort of with you when you wrote your blog etc on Myspace IM.
Lately,I've noticed you been complaining and bitching about How girls arent into you and all this crap...
And I mean complaining ALOT. I don't mind when people complain and such but when it's accessive complaining...Then I get annoyed.
You whining like a little bitch ain't gonna get you nowhere.
Get off your ass and do something about it if it's bothering you so much!
If girls arent into you,Fuck em and MOVE ON AND STOP COMPLAINING! I know COMPLAINING feels GOOD but it gets annoying when you do it too much and eventually PUSHES people away. Espcially females!
I REALLY don't mean to come off on you so harsh but you need to stop this seriously and stop being so fucking Negative about love and life itself. You have a beautiful daughter and THAT is a blessing enough.
Try to realize that this is probably God's Way of saying
"Take this time and use it wisely to focus and LOVE yourself and daughter" I've told you this before...
You have to love yourself before Loving ANYONE else.
Love will fall into your lap when you STOP looking!
Enjoy LIFE and What it has to offer!
Honey Buns,I can tell you only this...I want someone just as badly as you do...But I don't go around complaining and whining about it 24/7.
Complaining & Bitching will get you NO WHERE.
So when you choose to stop looking and Love yourself & your daughter then the woman of your dreams will come to you.
So stop bitching,complaining and enjoy Life with what it has to offer. Life is too short to be focused on just one thing.

Sir Integra <3

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: I Could Care Less!
Date: Mar 19, 2007 6:57 PM

Why is it that the only girls that are intrested in me live in another state? And the local ones tell me that im so sweet and such a good person, but dont want anything to do with me. I dont ask for much all i want is someone to watch a movie with me and hold me. Then again thats too much to ask for! If anyone can answer this question please give me the answer. So i can quit screwing up and fix whatever is wrong with me. Thank You!

OMFG!

2007-03-19T22:38:12Z

OMFG~! Kouta Hirano & KT Gray(voice of Seras Victoria from Hellsing) is COMING TO SAKURA CON!!!!! I DOUBT I'll be able to meet any or both of them...But If I do,I will make sure I get pictures! OMG,I just KNOW I'm gonna have a BLAST in less then 16 days!!!!

Tired of lies...

2007-03-14T20:31:16Z

I am...oh so sick and tired of being lied to...When I tell my "friends" I will be there for them,That is a PROMISE...and of course...People always come to me when I'm needed...When people tell me they'll be there for me...it seems to be a completly different thing...Everytime I need someone emotionally etc...They are never around when I need em....I'm tired of being alone...I'm tired of having NO ONE to go to when I need to talk to someone...This is just so fucking irritating...Life is just shit right now and I dunno why and I hope later this year...it'll get better...Cause I'm tired of life...I'm tired of people...and I'm tired of my fucking family and their bullshit...and I'm tired of not having anyone close enough to my heart that I can see everyday...but that is the life of the Knight I guess...

It's me...Sir Integra...No really!

2007-03-13T13:38:32Z

I don't really like the tie...I think it'd look cooler if the cross was metal =3 AND I look abit fat in my suit! I can't really do anything in the pants as it's hard to kinda move around in seriously!

In other news...I feel extreamly alone and that everything has turned to shit...I just don't ever really have anyone to hang out in real life...-sighs- hopefully we'll be moving right after Sakura con...

Which reminds me...

I will not be attending Anime Central...this is because I broke up my friendship with Mia...So Instead...I will be attending Anime Expo and hope that i'll have a blast there...Considering I know nobody going really and the only person I know going hasnt said he's excited that I'm coming...

Sakura con & Cosplay Talk

2007-03-06T12:48:41Z

So...Sakura con is next month...and I'm so excited and so anxious Can't even begin to TELL YOU. So to fill you in...

I should be receiving my suit very soon...today me and my mom will be working on the Tye...I might just go to Sakura con WITHOUT her cross just because I don't really have any time to do it...The Wig I already have...I got ACTUAL Authtentic Integra Glasses...You will see those very soon. I also decided that since I cannot FIND white gloves that actually fit me,I will get Fingerless White Gloves with White french manicure acrylic nails for Sakura con...I think it'll be unique and sexy! The problem is...I am having alot of trouble finding them the ones that I want solely...I want them all to look like Biker's Fingerless gloves...But in a silk like fabric,tight and looking cute =3

This Glove right here is the CLOSEST I could find...I am hoping the suit might cover the bow,If not,I might just snip it off or something and also cut the top of the glove so it'll be below my wrist bone :)

And lastly...I need to get Henri Winterman's Cigars...n_n

In Other news...Yesterday,It was my sister's Birthday...I spent like 314 bucks at the mall...n_n I'm a broke ho!

I spent like 170 bucks alone on Perfume!!! that is the most I've ever spent and the LAST time I'll EVER spend that much on perfume...(but won't have to pay that off til Next month cause I applied for Macy's and I got 10 percent off...So I'll only have to pay like...119 bucks...which is okay and I won't mind that at all...)

I also Spent 35 bucks at victoria's Secret...I got my sister some awesome Hygiene products...I got Amber Romance and she got Sweet temptations or something like that...

I also got a free tanktop and Lipgloss...Lipgloss is Strawberry Fizz and a pink tank top that says Delicious ;) LOL

Then...I paid like 20 bucks for black Vinyl cute shoes for my Sexy Integra Cosplay...n_n

last but not least...100 bucks for my phone bill...I had to pay it all off...and Im atleast glad I did...so now I finally get to pay a normal phone bill again...

I also have to fucking PRE REGISTER FOR ANIME CENTRAL IN MAY AHHHHHHH!!!! FUCKING A!

Next month...I am gonna be BROKER THEN BROKE! lmao

But it's all good :) :D Toodles for now.

Sir Integra <3

Stupid people...

2007-02-26T00:38:42Z

I am abit upset right now...It seems whenever I am down or hurt about something...People tend to make fun of me or laugh at it...Within a two day period,I've had two scary dreams...Both Different but both seem to have the same meaning...I must warn you the first dream...IF you DARE laugh at it or say it's porn I will fucking hunt you down and kill your ass...

First Dream:(The one everyone is laughing at. Im obviously a big Joke)
I was going to some type of new school or something...I remember I was talking to my new school teacher and remember he was hitting on me pretty hard but paid no attention to it really. Later that night,I was in my new house which I just moved into...I was in my PJ's sitting in the living room with nothing but total silence and reading a book...then I heard a knock at the door.
So I got up to see who it was...It was the teacher and I asked him what he was doing here,He said I invited him over for dinner,While I don't remember having the conversation with him,I invited him in anyways and decided to get cooking with Dinner...as I was getting ready to cook dinner,The next thing I realized I was pinned against the wall,the guy was giving me kisses that had no meaning or passion to it,and harassing me all the while...Eventually He left and as he did,I locked the door...I tried calling my friend Connor but to no avail...I just started to break down and cry,I woke up quickly afterwards.

Yea Rape/Harassment is a laughing matter! let's laugh everyone! hahahahaha! >_> Fuckers...

Second Dream:
I had a dream I was in the military I think(Because I Was in military clothing and all the accesories) I was obviously the leader and two other people with me,Some buff dude and my sister...We were in Viaducts...and it's amazing how I Was able to get through them cause Im extreamly Claustrophobic. I even noticed there was really tight spaces as well that no one could get through...Well I remember we were almost at the exit...All of a sudden me and my crew heard a scream/shout...Apparently someone was stuck in the Viaducts...I remember calling up someone...Like the main boss...and I started to cry because "He" said there was nothing we could do,and I felt horrible that we had to leave the person to die...All of a sudden..I saw the guy take a knife and stabbed himself commiting suicide...I looked to my sister in tears,Taking her hand asking her not to leave me alone...But she did it too...I was alone in the Viaducts...In complete darkness with my tiny light...Two dead people and in tears and said to myself "again,Im left alone in this world" and kept going...Its then I woke up...

Both of them have the same meaning...I apparently have lost something and feel completly powerless and Im not use to feeling powerless at all...It sucks...Horribly...
Espcially the fact that Im never heard/taken seriously enough and that im nothing but a big joke...:'(

Heartbroken...

2007-02-21T15:23:52Z

This is the only place I can conceal my feelings...I am crying so hard right now and I dunno why...My friend Pearle is getting married...I guess I really *do* have strong feelings for her,OF course Im happy for her and everything...But Loving someone and knowing you cant have them hurts deeply...I'm just hurting and crying so badly right now...It's weird...I am gonna finish Crying before someone hears me...

Anime conventions,...

2007-01-22T06:43:10Z

Holy fucking shit...Sorry folks it's been awhile since I updated this thing but here's whats going on...
I have been preparing and BUSTING my ass getting my Cosplay together...I only have 2 months to complete my cosplay...I am SERIOUSLY hoping I can get it done in time...Even tho it should be easy. The anime conventions I will be attending this year...
Sakura Con(Seattle,WA)
Anime Central(Chicago)
Kumori Con(Oregon but will be held in Vancouver,WA this year)
and MAYBE...I dunno which one yet...Ginger anne needs to tell me this one...
either Anime Boston
or Otakon...
I would really love to go to both but I dunno if I could...I need to figure out when both are...I know Otakon is in late july? Oh well...I am REALLY looking forward to meeting all the new people...and possibly falling in love and meeting my princess...:) I can honestly say this...I have NEVER been with a girl before nor have I have any sexual activity with any girl...But I know for a fact im probably truly a lesbian only because I can visual sex with them and not guys...I mean FUCK...I *DREAM* of screwing/having mad sex with Integra or Victoria...That's your proof right there! LMAO anywho...moving on...
Next month I'm gonna be spending a total of $339 dollars...I gotta pay my cell phone bill which is 75 bucks...my suit for Integra is gonna cost 110 bucks plus fucking 26 BUCKS FOR S&H!! and for my Sexy Integra Cosplay...It's gonna cost a total of 128 bucks for my skirt and Corset...Hopefully the corset is how I want it to look...making my boobs all busty :) teehee maybe I should really be called "slut integra"?? O_o
Anyways I'm done...I promise you i'll update this more often...:)

Ayumi
AKA
Sir Integra <3

So...To catch you all up...

2006-11-18T05:00:04Z

Hey peoples...Im sorry I havent wrote much lately...Everything has been so fucking stupid lately...So I'll catch you all up on what has happened since I last wrote.

Me and Mia Broke up,She was trying to make it seem like she was completly innocent when she wasnt,then proceeded to say she couldnt imagine herself marryin a woman and saying that when I see her that I still had a chance to "change her mind"...I completly understand the whole meeting someone and all that to be in love...But the way she put it made it seem like "oh I am not in love with you anymore,But I'll Screw you!" even after our breakup...She still flirts with me and acts like she did before when she first fell for me a long time ago. So if I kiss her at the convention in Chicago...it will be absolutley meaningless to me...and shewont succeed in having me ever again after she said she couldnt see herself marryin a woman. That pisses me off majorly...

So onto the other bullshit...

My mom and sister in law were talkin one night...Amber was telling my mom that my brother is now religious and shit and that he's a "Ba'hai" which is a east indian religion...now some of you may know,I am not judgemental on other people's religion...as long as your good hearted and have good intentions in life then thats all I care about! I don't judge people on their looks or how much money they have etc,It's all how you present yourself to me...The bitch had the nerve to say "Ba'hai is better then Wiccan Religion!" Please note people...Im not really Wiccan,I am just a traditional Witch who studies the history of Witchcraft and does Black & white magick to keep balance in my life...Either way,No matter what religion you are,You should never say one religion is better then the other...It's not okay. atleast not in my book. So I was quite pissed off at her remark to diss my religion like that...my sister in law is very two faced and I cant stand her...The reason why I put up with her bullshit and torment over the past 7+ years was to be close to my brother. So I decided that THAT was my last straw with her...She somehow figured I was pissed off at her as I wasnt talkin to her much then...She decided to go under my sister's screen name and pretend to be my sister "Amber is such a fucking bitch,She is just too fucking weird" Right when she said that...I knew it was amber...This is the 3rd time she's done this so I decided to play along..."OH yes,I despies amber,I think she's a religion whore and that she should eat sloth and go to hell!" she got so pissed off and said "btw,This is amber,Figures your two faced." What a dumb bitch...I am glad I don't have to deal with her...I had to deleate my old myspace cause my sister and sister in law were harassing me. My sister completly defended Amber,Saying she was justified and I don't count for nothing...My brother wasnt even outraged by what she had done...Here comes the proof that my brother had really changed...my sister angela said she was going to my mom some money for food...she then turned around and said "oh I cant cause i have to pay for this this etc etc" and my mom was really angry...Now we were saved because I got a refund from a website cause my order on something was backordered so we had 36 dollars...my mom wanted to make my brother feel guilty by saying that tyler(my baby nephew) had nothing to eat or anything...He had the nerves to say "We have alot of food here...No problem here" I can't believe he fucking said that. What an asshole...He's no longer my brother. anyways...I'll tell the rest later.

Lady Ayumi